Puppy!

Hey everyone, sorry that I have not been here much lately but lots has been happening. College is hectic as it is the last semester...almost there, almost there BREATH.

My mother passed away on 7 March and we will be having the service on Monday, it is a very strange feeling and I am not to sure what to do with myself...I find myself thinking about her and remembering silly things and conversations etc.

My beautiful daughter is expecting her second child, a boy, in June (I think) which is exciting. My new home is just lovely and I am enjoying it but still find it hard to grasp that it is my own and that I will not be asked to leave.

On Tuesday my bookcases arrived and all my books are now out loud and proud. I am surprised at how a simple piece of furniture can make my life seem so much more together all of a sudden...does this mean that I am shallow? WHO CARES.

Soooooo that is what has been happening and much much more. I drew this picture for my Grand daughter, Bonnie in honour of her learning how to say the word "Puppy" I will make her a T-shirt too.

That is all from me but never forget that I love you all and think of you often, can you feel the vibes? Have your ears been burning? Cause if they have then that is me thinking of you. REALLY THINKING LOTS about you and sending you lovey vibes and big squishy hugs through the computer, into the miasma then up your nose and into your brain, yes, right into your brain... That's how much i love you...never forget that.

Be happy always

xox eve xox

P.s I miss the weasel :(

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Follow Me Don't Follow Me.

Monday 27 July 2009
8.50 am


· It is interesting watching different people deal with someone that wants to argue, I was the one walking out of the room into another part of the house...within 5 minutes everyone was hiding with me and we laughed.

· My daughter is leaving to visit her father’s family in Western Australia. I am afraid that she will never come back.

· During my holidays all I did was look at real estate and now I am dreaming about floor plans.

· I have been tempted to return to the dark side.

· I am typing this list when I should be doing homework, laundry, drying my hair and making myself a coffee.

· My graphics tablet is not working and I cannot re install the software that would fix it, as it is buried and locked away with all my other junk at a storage unit in Camperdown.I hate storage.

Tuesday 4 August 2009
2.29 pm

· I am bored and need something, anything to happen.

· I am sick of looking at 1 bedroom flats and wish I could look at 2 bedroom houses (with a little garden would be perfect).

· My list is all complaints so far BUT my neck hurts, sorry.

· I am thankful for the friends and family that I have around me they make me laugh, give advice and they tell you that you are looking good and doing well and these are things I REALLY need to hear right now.

· I had a nice weekend with Ben, Amanda and Lili... We walked, talked and had lunch together which was lovely.

· I think I should stop writing this list as all I can think of now is more negative crap and my brain has stopped working.

I need to find my nest.

I have become numb with it all and it is all nothing.
xox eve xox


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Another Semester Finished.

Well, here I sit having finished all the exams and work required...what will I do with my time for the next three weeks?
I will promise myself that I will draw.
I will vow to carry my sketch book and camera around with me everywhere looking for and seizing upon those moments of inspiration...I will, I will.
I will also over indulge on facebook and blogger, I will stalk Bulldog like I used to and send messages to my favorite Weasel.
I will visit my daughter and play with my granddaughter...Oh joy.
I will read newspapers and drink coffee.
I will wish I had more money but be glad that I don't.
I will think about old friends and wonder what people are up too these days.
I will love and be loved.
I will eat the forbidden donut (10 points to anyone that knows where that line comes from)

I will be uplifted by the everyday.
You are most welcome to join me.

xox eve xox

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With Birds I Share This Lonely View.

I have been very quiet haven't I? I have been busy with three days at college and all that goes along with that. Today I am studying for my bookkeeping assessment...I'm trying to make bookkeeping fun...TRYING! 'Leave loading' and 'tax withholding' are such fun things and lets not even start on the hilarity of tax tables or I may just pee myself a little.

Let's see what has been going on...my grand daughter is now almost 5 months old and she thinks that I am hilarious, she is just super dooper what more can I say.






I have been trying to avoid the 'ines' ie: nicotine, caffeine, morphine etc....just thought I'd share that with you all.

It has been raining for days and days and as I type this it is bucketing down outside....If this keeps up our fashions by the end of the week will be just FAB...I'm already running out of socks and jocks...that's me sharing again.



I have a nice big desk set up in my room and a groovy pin board that I am, I fear, a little toooo excited about.

One of my teachers said that she thought that I was a perfectionist, It was like she was informing me of some terminal illness, she even did the 'tisk' sound...I think that I can rise above these sorts of comments but this one has me wondering and reviewing my life and my shortfalls...It has made me think toooo much and this is not always a good thing for me.

It has stopped me from drawing as now I feel that the reason I could not draw for so long was because I was a perfectionist and why draw if it is not going to be perfect...ahhhhh

This is where my head has been for a while now.

Pfffffft Oh well thats about all for now except that I did want to say that one day I will have a groovy warehouse conversion and you can all come and stay with me when you are in Sydney on holidays or when fleeing from justice which ever comes first.


You are all just such beautiful people and I'm sending each and everyone of you a big squeezy hug....can you feel it?



byeeeee
xox eve xox




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Hey There Everybody.

I have no Internet and it looks like things will not change for a while.





that is all.
xox eve xox

What Have I Been Up To?

Look what my Daughter did! Isn't she clever?

Well we were all waiting for this little girl to arrive.

My phone was ALWAYS in my hand or under my pillow waiting for the call to say she was on her way, so if I have not developed so sort of tumor I will be surprised.

I have discovered what has been going on with my neck an shoulder (another reason I have not been blogging much) I have Degenerative changes caused by an injury 10 years ago...

Another name for this, besides painful, is ARTHRITIS.

It will NEVER go away...Never!

I am having trouble accepting the "never" part.

I have started swimming again which is nice and will help with the neck.

I stopped smoking on Tuesday night...yes,yes. I know,I know..This time it's for real.

Just gotta get over that 3 day hump and I'll be right...I WILL be.

I have not been drawing much lately....the neck again.

I will be re-enrolling and continuing my business course.

My Dad will be 88 (two fat ladies!) soon...

I am fighting with a router...it will NOT work! I have to climb up to the attic room and plug into my brothers connection if I want to do ANYTHING that needs the internet

I have been playing too much computer solitaire

Well.... that is really all I can think of to say...I could say more but it would involve lots of computer sitting and that hurts.

Ouch!

love to you all

xox eve xox

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The Bridge Climb - The view is awesome dude!

What can I say...I can say that it was O.K... I would have preferred a little bit more of that 'oh shit oh shit I'm gunna die' feeling but they have gone so totally over the top with safety that I found myself looking for danger, and that is not a healthy thought process to have, especially for me.
Would I do it again? Yes, but at night next time..It would be more thrilling at night.


Before you even get to the bridge proper you have to do a few things.

• Sit in a little waiting area until your group is called.
• When called you are moved into another even smaller room to fill out forms, confess to any major operations in the last 6 months and...be breathalysed (where's the fun in that?)
• You are then told to walk through another door and to stand on little circles painted onto the floor, I assumed this was to prevent us from getting tangled up with each other.
• The nice woman then looks us all up and down in order to size us for our sexy one piece jump suit (not the right name me thinks)
• You are told to remove watches, large earrings, bracelets and any hair accessories..elastic bands are o.k but scrunchies are out. At this point my mind wanders thinking of what sort of weapon a scrunchy could be fashioned into!!!
• You are told to remove everything from your pockets and to only wear a light layer of clothing under the suit.
• Then, with jump suit in hand, it is into another smaller room with lockers.
• Choose a locker, walk behind one of the little curtain change areas and strip.
• Spend 1 min putting on your jump suit and 10 minutes helping others put theirs on the right way
• Place all your contraband into the locker and the locker key around your neck.
• Is this starting to sound like prison yet???
• You are then made to walk through a metal detector once through the detector you are double checked by someone with a hand held wand thingy
• Oh and you are told that when walking through the detector just to clasp your hand around your locker key (that is around your neck) so as not to set it off- At this point my companion turns to say that this is a tip that we can now use at international airports
• My mind wanders, thinking of what you could conceal in your closed hand that could possibly cause chaos- a tiny explosive device, a tiny gun, a really nasty tiny dog.
• Blahh blahh you get kitted up
• You climb/walk the bridge.
• You do all the above points in reverse (ouch)
• You collect your free group photo and refuse to pay $24 plus for any of the other photos they took whilst you were up there.
• You go to the pub with the nice Scottish couple you met whilst climbing and have a stiff drink.

THE END
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But seriously it was fun and easy enough for anyone to do

(please see terms and conditions available on the bridge climb web site)

THIS is also very cool

One thousand small steps.

The Bridge in Curve. 1926 Grace Cossington Smith

I am very excited and a little terrified, but in that good way... do you understand?
Next Wednesday I will be climbing the Sydney Harbour Bridge...EEeeeeeep.
And it wont just be the usual over the arch climb it will be the new and exciting through the girders climb...don't ask me now what this means, ask me next week.
I am not sure about the rules for cameras and such but I will borrow one and I will take photos if possible.
I am a little stuck for words at the moment as I keep looking at this beautiful painting (above)
It is just amazing and even better in real life...[BIG SIGH]
I fear that this little adventure of mine could start me on a harbour bridge theme and I have only just started getting into the birdy thing...Just go with it I guess.
How exciting.
Are you excited?
I think you are.

xox eve xox

P.s- I just found this image on the web sight...Ahhhhhh


Copyright © E Jennings 2008.

Life Is Good

I am happy.


Life is amazing really.
Just when you think you have things worked out you realize something new, something else, another way of looking at things. It is a constant journey, a never ending learning experience. I would not want it any other way.

I have had a lovely morning filled with little things that make me happy

Before he goes to work, Ben tells me how loved I am. I stretch and smile and tell him the same.
I dress and think of coffee. When I open the door I am greeted by Billy and Lola the little girls’ next door they have drawn me a picture in coloured chalk on the footpath to say thank you for the one I drew for them last night while they slept.

I walk to the bakery and George, on the coffee machine, smiles and says my name. We chat and laugh as he makes my, and ten other peoples coffees.

On the way home I stop in at the local corner store to pick up a few things. The shop keeper and I have a silly conversation ending every statement with the word – Please.

How are you please?


Have a nice day please

I walk towards home. Turning into our little street I see the chalk shadows that Ben and I drew last night in the middle of the road.

I smile a big smile


I put the key in the door and Lilly greets me with her ‘Pigeon Cat’ purr, she rubs her soft fur against my bare legs.

We sit together, the cat and I, in the sunny spots in the little back yard.

As the sun comes and goes, she cleans. I write.


It is good to be here, it is good to be alive.

It is good to be in this moment.

I am happy

xox eve xox


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Raindrops Keep Falling Overneath My Head.

Well it seems like ages since i have been here actually writing something and I am not really sure what to write. I did the assessments at college and was pleased with how I went. I did make the silliest mistake in the spreadsheet exam and I was kicking myself for a few days because of it but I am alright now and the lesson that I learnt was to ALWAYS check your work no matter how confident you are.

I am currently connected to my brothers Internet connection which, compared to mine, is super fast. SWeeeeeeeeeT

I found a wireless router so I am considering setting that up so that I can use HIS Internet on MY laptop anywhere in the house.

(some technical assistance may be required, any volunteers?)

I am becoming a non smoker...again. This has had some unexpected psychological side effects basically I am just slightly madder than I usually am (and I am usually quite mad).

On a brighter note, all my old school chums (that i am now "friends" with on facebook) are turning 40 so I am now not the only one.

This brings me great comfort although all their beautiful photographs have brought me sleepless nights, had me contemplating a new wardrobe and some form of plastic surgery, none of which I can afford.

What to do? What to do?

GET OVER IT that is what I will do.

I wanted to visit Dad next week but I am low on funds and have to be back for 2 days of holiday classes by Thursday.I'm sure I'll work something out.

Sorry this is so boring.

I think that the rain clouds in the sky overneath me are having a negative effect.

xox eve xox

Copyright © E Jennings 2008.

NOTE:

Sorry no wit sprinkled post, just exams at college...blahh. Oh okay, just for you... Here is a picture of my brother

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This is for You.

This is for you, yes you!

For all of you that visit these pages.

Please forgive the brevity of this post... I had just written a lovely long tale telling you of my weekend at Dad's, visiting my friend Rhonda and her delightful family when, as I was doing some editing (selecting ALL so as to Justify the text) I deleted the whole thing... only to then discover that the 'Auto Save as Draft' function had not kicked in AT ALL...

Blahh Blahh Blahh...AHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I will write again later today, when I have composed not only myself but another wit sprinkled tale for your reading pleasure.

Thank you and with love,

xox eve xox

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The Concentrating Cowboy.

Things have been a bit, well, sad and happy, hectic yet settled. It is hard to talk about so explaining it is impossible.

My course has been going well and i am enjoying it.

Dad is getting better and is down to visit the Dentist, so I will be dropping by today to give him a hand with some shopping, bed making and taxi getting.

I made a t-shirt of the "Ben has had too much coffee" picture and to my surprise people have asked about it, read it and related and asked me where I got it...

Soooo I have decided to make another of this little fella'

he will end up looking like this-



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that's all from me for now...

xox eve xox

A Beautiful Walk.

I went up to Dad's for a quick visit on the weekend. He seems to be getting along well on his own although I do think that he is a bit lonely sometimes without Mum.
Ben drove me up there and we met up with Rhonda and the dogs Bluey (pictured) and Bella and went for a beautiful walk along the creek near Dad's old place.
We saw lots of frolicking young steers (cattle) some fabulous wombat holes and just marveled at nature, it was great.
I did not want to leave.
In this picture, that Rhonda took, you can see Mt. Tinnagroo in the background.
This is all for now I have been a bit busy with my college course and also a bit down about the lack of comments (I know it is silly of me)
I know that lots of people visit but only a loyal few leave me a message...I almost deleted this blog last night but was talked out of it...It is only human to want feed back... Perhaps I need it more than most due to some kind of childhood trauma... WHO KNOWS?
thanks everyone,
xox eve xox

My New Friend Rhonda.

I have an amazing, new friend.

Her name is Rhonda and she is very talented. More importantly though she is kind.

Rhonda and her beautiful son became my friends whilst I was staying with my father after he had had a nasty fall.

We had been introduced by a mutual friend, Dorothy.

Rhonda then became my friend too...She cheered me up, took me to Youth Club to draw with the kids, we went on a lovely walk along the creek and saw BIG wombat burrows.

She was patient, caring and compassionate.

Rhonda, with her positive words and sense of fun, helped me more than she knows, she helped me back to ME, to wanting to be a better kind of me, the me that was buried under piles of self doubt.

The me that had been lost for quite a while.

We have had very different journeys through life but had so much in common that it was simply quite amazing.

So this is to say thank you.

Thank you for being my new friend.

Someone that I am sure will become a very dear friend.

xox eve xox

Furthering Your Education Is Fun...and somewhat confusing

For those of you that do not know, TAFE is an acronym for Technical and Further Education.
So far, things have been going well and I am really enjoying the course.
Today I was promoted to Administrative Supervisor in our model office... HOORAY!
Watch out world, here I come...A little bit late I know but as my brother says, I am evolving.
Sorta like a butterfly.

xox eve xox

A New Place To Call Home.

Tonight I had dinner with my brother and Ben.

My brother said I could come and live at his place with him.

This is more than I could have hoped for and I now feel that my life has an anchor again.

A little place for me to be me.

A home.

xox eve xox

P.S. I had a beautiful day.

Can it get any better than this?

Did Ya Miss Me? ( With Every Shot So Far )

I am back...I am feeling clearer than I have in a long time.
Having time away has helped me more than I can express.
I missed my daughter sooooo much and went straight to her place before I even went home.
She now has a little baby bump tummy and looks so beautiful.

We hugged, I handed over gifts and all was right with the world.

I am happy to announce that I am the proud owner of the now famous 'Guinea Pig" painting.

Word had spread like wild fire. I arrived at the youth club a little late only to be greeted by a cry of-

"This is the lady that wants to buy your picture"

I then entered into intense negotiations with a lovely 10 year old girl, who was soooo excited I thought she may burst, the handsome sum of $5 was agreed upon.

Her mother, who had brought her to youth club especially, took photos of the artist handing me the "Guinea Pig" and there was talk of the $5 being framed and kept as a memento of the occasion.

What can I say...It was all just MAGIC.

I felt like I had entered the pages of a Famous Five story-

"Bags of lettuce and lashings of ginger beer for everyone" I felt like saying.

I will write more soon and will have some photos to share with you.

xox eve xox

Welcome To Horse Country.

Well here I am back at Dad's place.I arrived by train on friday and was met at the station by my new friend The Talented Rhonda,her Super Speller son Ali and Bella the Beautiful Boarder Collie. It was so nice to have friendly faces to greet me even if they were all suffering from the flu that I'm sure they caught from me last week (Don't say that I never give you anything Rhonda!) The first port of call was to the cafe as i had NOT had a coffee ALL day and was, I think, suffering from caffeine withdrawal. We then went on to Dad's so that I could dump my bags and go to the loo (you really needed to know that! Didn't you?) As Dad was having his afternoon nap I knew he would be fine till at least 6 pm so off we went to the Youth Club to Paint pictures with all the kids.I love watching the kids paint they are just so amazing and last week one of them painted the best guinea pig EVER- I have made an offer of $5 for said "Guinea Pig" and I am prepared to go as high as $10 but that is my limit.The prices in the art world are crazy enough as it is without me contributing. I have Max Watters acting as my agent in these high stakes negotiations so I feel confident that the 'Guinea Pig' will be mine.Lets all just hope that the 9 year old is willing to sell. I am quietly confident.

I mentioned my hair (on my head) in the last post. Well... I decided that I would treat myself to a proper haircut-by proper I mean one that has not been done by me with the kitchen scissors in the front yard. I have not had a "proper" hair cut for 15 years so you can imagine,quite easily, that I know nothing about the 'ways' of the salon...NOTHING.

So I decided that I would simply have my eyebrow waxed (Yes, that does say EYEBROW) and then have my hair (on my head) shampooed and then trimmed...easy. Everything was going smoothly, I had braved the hot wax on the eyebrow torture (I had never had this done either) and it was not as bad as one would imagine. If anyone is going to fall in a heap wailing because of self inflicted and unnecessary pain it is me. I then had the best shampoo and conditioning head massage in the universe followed by a trim that went from about an inch to about 4 inches as my confidence grew (I was starting to get into this secret women's stuff ) It was at this exact moment, with my confidence growing and my guard down that the salon girl,somehow sensing my vulnerability, pounced...

"Would you like to put a semi permanent colour through your hair today?"

I,not wanting to appear ignorant of such things,requested more information and if possible the use of props. The nice girl explained that it would not be a permanent colour and would wash out after 30 washes. She showed me a big board with samples of coloured hair, she pointed to my blondie colour and then to another deeper colour that she thought would suit me. I remember saying that i thought that the intended colour sample looked a bit dark and she assured me that it would not be as dark as that. I asked why they would make the sample darker than it actually turned out and wouldn't they be better off making the samples match the end result... Obviously no one had ever questioned her like this before and it was right then that I should of high tailed it out of there...But I didn't. Instead I said- "O.K"

Well after this procedure was completed I was left with dark brown hair...DARK BROWN...not that there is anything wrong with that but it is just not me.

Before I had even left the salon I was enquiring as to weather me going home and washing my hair 30 times would remove this colour from my hair... Now This was the first time I had done anything like this to my hair and it will be the last.

When I was at the college signing up for my business admin course the other day I got talking to a young girl that was studying hairdressing (where was she last week?) she told me that I should know that my hair,after this stuff has washed out in 5 weeks, will not go back to its original colour completely..EVER..NOOOoooooooooooo.

Kinta's boyfriend Chris says that I now have artificial intelligence as I went from blonde to brunette.

I feel silly and just not like me anymore.

I avoid mirrors as I just end up sighing heavily and wishing it all would just GO AWAY.

Alan did not say anything for quite some time and then all he said was-

"Your eyebrows look good"

I think that about sums it up.

Boooooooooooo.
xox eve xox

Don't look at me

Come And Experience The Horse Capital...

I have been staying with Dad in the country side for the last 2 weeks.He escaped from the hospital in Sydney and my sister drove us back up to his place.

I was there to catch him if he fell and generally do things that he can not.

I have become quite skilled at preparing scotch and will be adding this skill to my resume forth with.

(Dad says I am to mean with the scotch Booooo)

Today I am in Sydney to enroll in an office admin course and then I will be returning to Scone tomorrow...Phew

I have also had the flu and feel exhausted but it is nice to be home (Alan's place) amongst familiar things.

Oh I also had half my hair cut off (from my head) and the hairdresser talked me into putting a semi permanent rinse through it...BIG MISTAKE, but that's another story..

xox eve xox

p.s- hey Amanda do you want to come and have a luxury weekend in the countryside????

Just give me a call...I'm serious